Tuesday, September 21, 2010

Days to our son

With time ticking by I ask myself am I going to get the things I want to have done completed for our son? Now for those of you that do not know I am going to be the stay at home parent after the heart attacks and the surgery I have been left unable to work again with my health disabilities. So Dad is going to be Mom so to speak but in to days times it is not unheard of and I look forward to spending this second chance to raise our son. Now I know we are like most parents to be put off the things preparing for the arrive of the new child yes we have done it now too. Some cleaning to setting up the room and if you are the smart parent the garage sale bargains we have found for clothes after all they don't get to wear those baby clothes but once or twice so those quarter to dollar clothes all need to washed and but in the drawers. So here I stand some days are hard to get these things worked on to get them completed either it gets hard to breath or my energy runs out before I can even finish the project. There are days I look at where we are and ask with all that has come about in our lives to why this blessing has been granted to us but maybe that is the point, it is a blessing, it is a second chance maybe we are to learn form this new child, hummm. An old saying, out of the mouths of babes come wisdom, Art Linkletter provided that with his show Kids Say the Darndest Things, maybe we should listen to our children we might learn some simple things. But I still need to put trust, my faith, to believe that that everything is going to be OK it may not be easy nor the way I wanted to be or have all the extra money for everything I want it is going to be the way it is to be. There was some thing I always told Anna as we waited for our visa to come Faith, Trust, Believe, Love, Forever I need to keep these words close to heart now for me. I need to go back to the basics One Day at a Time, Let Go and Let God, Came to Believe That a Power Great then Ourselves. So I leave this entry with one thing Turn it Over, I am where I am to be. God Bless 

Greg

Wednesday, September 8, 2010

A Second Chance

Many of us always utter the words I wish I Had a Second Chance, Maybe we do get it; or we think we did. Today I look at my life and I know I have been given it, with marriage of my wife Annielie from the Philippines, the surviving the heart attacks and the open heart surgery was the start to my second chance. Now I want to say the greatest second chance as it came with the news we are going to have a son due in November 2010. Many do not know our son is not my first, he is going to be my second, actually my third I have twin daughters 30 years ago in 1980. I did not get to do much of the raising of them after catching my ex-wife running around cheating on me, she convenience the courts she was better then me. Then moved away from me so I was not able to be in their lives much, unable to be part of their lives the way I wanted, to give them parts of me for their lives to live. Now God has blessed me with a second chance of a child to raise, to share with him parts of me, the love, the tradition, the values the worldly knowledge and skills that I have along with Annielie parts to make him a full and whole man some day. With each passing day I watch my wife grow with this pregnancy, feel the movements inside her the small bumps that show from the interior of her and dream of what he will looks like and pray I can be all I can be for him to give him what is need to face the future. I pray with this second that I can be here long enough in his life to see him become a man to maybe even see his wife and my grand child from him all with Gods help, guidance, and blessing because you see second chances are rare and only come once in a while and should not be wasted. What a great second chance Thank you  GOD and as each day goes by help me to be all I can today each day. God Bless

Greg

Wednesday, September 1, 2010

Time, Chances, Love


How many of us really look at where we have come from or where we are going in our lives? Have you gone where you wanted to be up to this moment in your life? Have you become who you wanted to be for your life today? I know for me for my dreams not all have been the way I wanted in my life but I can say I would not change what has happen to me. For it is the path I have walked that has made me who I am what I have become for if I had changed one small thing, a decision I made, a place I had gone to or a thing I did it would have made or change who I am today. Now I must say how many of you have had the opportunity to start over or to be granted a new way of life? I know I have been give a few and have used them to make me better to make my life greater, becoming sober & free of drugs was a new start for my life. The next was to be able to become a tattoo artist to travel and meet people and share of who I am across this country. The next was being able to go abroad to meet my loving caring wife which changed my life even more. Now as found myself in a matter of life and death with my heart attacks and open heart surgery here my wife opened my eyes and life to more than I could ever imagine, of love, understanding, and compassion. But most of all the best and biggest is to be given a second chance to be able to guide and love a new life. With all that has happened in my life been give to me in changes or new beginnings the best and happiest thing is the blessing of our new arriving son in mid November. To be able to teach share and guide God, Family, Love, Heritage, Traditions, Values in our sons life for his place in this world now that is a blessing and a gift and for this I am thank full and honored thank you God. God Bless.

Greg